Beautiful

(... to my daughter....)

Thankyou..... thankyou..... thankyou.....
My beautiful girl.... Thankyou.

The sun was warm and the  breezes cool
We talked and shared....
.... and laughed together.

Your eyes sparkled at times....
.. dare I hope the sparkle
was in more than your eyes?

I want to warm your heart....
You deserve a time of happiness.

Beautiful girl..... Thankyou.

The world you see
through your part of the spectrum?....
I can only guess at what it might look like.
 

I know that your world
is very different from mine.

.... and what will your world will be like
in time to come?  I can only imagine 

© Ian Croft April 2019 

Anxiety

[the battle with anxiety.....]

Your crying tears my heart to shreds
and the pain in your voice.....
"I cry" you say.
I know you do my little girl
I hear your voice from behind your door
You have learned to shut us out....
but the barriers you raise cannot stop
the blades that cut my heart.

You're so polite.... "Thankyou Daddy"
you say.... as you command me to go....
but you keep your pain....
within your room
As I listen from outside
it hammers my brain.

What can I do to ease your pain?
I know that I am powerless....
All I can do.....
..... is to just be there for you

© Ian Croft April 2019

Autism

When she was first diagnosed
I learned that "Autism is not a word
.... it's a sentence."  
It's over 12 years since that time
..... and I'm learning that the word "sentence"
doesn't have to mean a jail sentence......
it can also mean "a set of words that is complete in itself".

And the sentence can mean anything I intend.

She is showing me that she can grow into a beautiful person.

© Ian Croft February 2019