The infernal me

[.... the internal battle ...]

The infernal internal me
is a very fickle thing to be....
it takes the slightest hint
of reprobation.... or chastisation...
and turns it into a conflagration
of self flagellation.

..... and just when it's feeling content
with the self that it has molded and bent
into a shape that brings satisfaction....
... it goes and starts....
the whole darn process again!

Cut..... Stab.... Burn.... Pain
.... it's so good at bringing down
the self that feels happy and content....
It leaves me bleeding.... and rent
in two by the never ending
onslaught of negation.

What now I think....
How can this cycle of self destruction
be stopped.... ended...?

Aahhh..... Bliss.... if it can....
If it can cease.....
then the infernal internal....
can just be internal.....
and no longer infernal....

© Ian Croft April 2019