How do I find a friend?

[..... for the bad times]

I look at the list of people I know in my FB page
and I'm struck by how few of these people
know me more than as a 'surface contact'
Many know of the battles I have faced .....
Many know of the struggles with the black dog.
A few know of the depths of those struggles
.... just how deep the struggles dive to.

I have told many of the 'winter of depression' feeling
...... to convey the feeling to those with no experience
and the story seems to get through to them.

But when I'm down and struggling ....
..... no one is there
I try to think of who I could call ....
but the hole is too deep
and not one of my friends is looking into the hole

I have friends who live in their own holes .....
         ........they don't hear my cry.
I wish I could hear them ..... I'd sit with them
in their hole ..... cos I know what they are feeling.

So I ask you .... how do I find a friend
who will be there for me when I can't carry on
Someone who will hold my hand
....... and just be there for me

And how do I hear my friends?
.... when they cry out for help?

© Ian Croft June 2019